After The Fall By Jesse Smith http://slicer69.tripod.com By all rights, the fall should have broken his neck, should have killed him on impact. All the eye witnesses would later agree on that point. But it didn't. Some observant bystander noticed the body was breathing. By the time the paramedics arrived to carry the body to the morgue, it was considered to be in stable, yet critical, condition. Jesus was, or is, for those of you of a religious mind, magic. He was, by all accounts, likely the greatest magician to walk the face of the Earth. Water to wine, dead to life, curing blindness, strolling the waves and calming the weather were among his more popular tricks. No smoke and no mirrors in sight. He even pulled fish out of a hat. A trick that would later be modified, by members of his profession, to use a bunny. Rabbits are generally rated with a higher cute factor than fish. They tend to smell better too. The only trick Jesus didn't master was that of the escape artist. The body was examined, patched up and placed in a hospital bed under the watchful eye of several doctors and nurses. Fairly typical case, from the look of him. A jumper, perhaps, who hadn't picked a ledge high enough. He was pronounced stable and placed in a bed away from the window. Nurse Nancy was charged with watching over him. Nurse Nancy, for Nancy was her name and nursing was her game, was a kind hearted lady. Tall, thin, with wispy blonde hair. She had a smile for everyone and always seemed ready to help, eager to please. She did, however, have a brisk air of efficiency about her, some of her patients were known to observe. A business-like quality which kept her detached. It was Nancy, our nurse's nurse, who made the incredible discovery. The patient did not have a pulse. What began as a routine check of his vital signs (blood pressure, heart rate, "Is he still breathing?") revealed the mystery. While the anonymous patient (no ID or wallet had been found on his person) was breathing slowly and steadily Nurse Nancy could find no pulse on her charge. She checked again and then checked once more. Perplexed, she called for a doctor. Words are, perhaps, the most abstract invention of the human race. The written word is a collection of symbols grouped together. These symbols, letters, are also abstractions. Letters represent sounds and meanings, which can change depending on the context. Further more, to frustrate the logical mind, words have no firm definition. Words are defined, oddly enough, with other words. Most people know one should not use the word being defined in the definition. However, how many have considered that defining a word with more words similarly leads one down a circular road? Doctor Denman took a look at the hospital's unusual arrival. He checked for the non-existent pulse, he checked the patients's breathing and then he checked for a pulse again. Dr. Denman shook his head and tested his patient's reflexes. Normal. The mystery man, who would be labelled John Doe in place of any firm identification, awoke at nine o'clock the next morning. Nurse Nancy, who had just started her shift, poked her head into his room in time to see him lift his head and look about the room. Surprised at his seemingly rapid recovery, she stepped through the door. "Good morning," N.N. greeted. The stranger turned to face her. He looked curious and not at all alarmed by his surroundings. "Hello," he replied. Nurse Nancy smiled at him and took another step into the room. She waited for the regular enquiry, "Where am I?" "What's your name?" he asked instead. "Nancy," she offered, "How do you feel?" He coughed, "I'm a little dry. May I have something to drink, please?" Nancy nodded, "Yes," then she turned and walked from the room, shaking her head. Mr. Doe seemed very relaxed about waking up in a hospital. Relaxed and quite focused. Pyramid power has been debated for the past twenty-five years, sometimes heatedly. The theory is the shape of the pyramid manages to, in some way, channel energy, focus it in some fashion. The result is, according to some, the preservation of things in the centre of the pyramid. Corpses, razor blades and perhaps even food is said to be kept in better condition, longer, than normal. There is, of course, debate by sceptics, over just what qualifies as "normal". Doe, John Doe. International man of mystery. Double, oh, I don't know. Once her patient had consumed two glasses of water, a muffin (carrot) and requested chicken soup (please), Nurse Nancy was convinced there was nothing wrong with her charge's appetite. By the time Dr. Denman arrived on the scene, his pulse-less patient was sitting up and slurping back chicken bits. Body temperature, normal; breathing, normal; heart beat, non-existent. "What is your name, sir?" Dr. Denman asked. The patient regarded the doctor for a few seconds, "I don't know." "You don't remember?" The man shook his head. "Do you remember where you live?" The sandy haired head shook a negative. "Perhaps you recall which year it is?" "No, sir." "Who is in the White House?" A shrug, "I don't recall." "The police are going to want to talk to you. It seems you took quite a fall yesterday." "Okay." Let us envision, for a moment, a man standing on a twentieth floor balcony. He has had a bad day. That is, he feels distressed by the events of the past twelve hours. He sips back the last of his wine (red, French) and regards the goblet. Slightly intoxicated, he takes in the clear glass, the smooth sides and the film of rouge in the bottom. Then, frustrated, he throws the glass over the edge of his balcony and watches it fall to the sidewalk below. At that very moment, a woman steps into view. The tossed drinking utensil crashes into her head. The lady dies as a result of the impact. Some moral questions might be raised by these events. Were the acts of the man murder, man slaughter or simply littering? Had the drinking glass been tossed into an alley, rather than to a sidewalk, would that alter the charge? Tragically, reports of the incident would probably focus more on the presents of alcohol in the chain of events than any other point. Most aphids would probably disagree with me. Aphids are T-totallers. No spirits pass their lips, no tobacco smoke enters their little lungs. They are prudes of the bug world. Perhaps this is why the aphid is so tasty; their blood is pure. The aphid sweats sugar. The patient was munching on lunch when Detective Roberts entered the room. The combined smell of bread, apple juice and a fruit cup soon found itself mated with more smells: cigarettes, ink and suspicion. Nurse Nancy handled the introductions, such as they were. "Sir, this is Detective Roberts. Mr. Roberts, this is our mystery patient." "Thank you, nurse." The man labelled John Doe patted the bed next to his right leg, "Have a seat, Detective." Detective Roberts chose a chair instead. He took out a notepad and a pen from his coat pocket. "I understand you had quite the fall, yesterday, Mr. ..." the detective began. A blank, stare was the only reaction. "He doesn't remember his name," Nurse Nancy supplied. "I am aware, Nurse. You'd be surprised at the things which will trigger a memory." Nancy nodded at the back of the detective's head. She stood in the doorway, watching her quickly recovering fall victim. "Do you recall what happened to you yesterday, shortly after supper time?" Roberts asked. The patient drank some apple juice, swallowed and shook his head slowly side-to-side. "Let's go back further. What city are you in?" "Halifax." "Good. How long have you lived here?" "I don't know. I overheard one of the nurses say she was going to the Halifax Shopping Centre this afternoon." "Oh. What's your mother's name?" A pause, then a shrug of the shoulders. "Well, you speak fluent English. Hardly any trace of an accent. Parlez-vous français?" "Oui, je, parler français, détective." "Bilingual. Okay," Roberts turned to regard Nurse Nancy for the first time, "Does he have any tattoos?" "None that I'm aware of, Detective. I didn't do a ... thorough check." "In that case, please do. I'll be back to take some finger prints." Detective Roberts stood, nodded to both the patient and his caretaker and walked briskly from the room. "Do you have any tattoos?" Nancy asked her patient. John looked under his bed sheet, "I don't think so," he answered. A laugh escaped her lips, "Please check yourself over when you next go to the bathroom." "Sure," he popped a piece of bread into his mouth. It is nearly impossible for an ant to die as the result of a fall. The body of the industrious insect is built in such a way as to catch the air as it falls. This allows a falling ant to float, relatively gently, to the ground. Humans are not so blessed. Neither, for that matter, are dolphins. "Excuse me, miss." Nurse Augustine looked up from her paperwork. It was two o'clock in the morning. The patient, the one who had addressed her, stood in his gown, sans slippers. His sandy hair was tossed about his head like the lines of an abstract art painting. "Can I help you, mister...?" "Doe. They call me Doe," he answered. "What can I do for you, Mr. Doe?" "I was wondering where I might find some blueberry pancakes," he stated, "I just woke up and I have a terrible craving for the things." "For pancakes?" "With blueberries, yes." "I'm sorry, Mr. Doe, but the kitchen is closed. Could you make due with some blue Jell-o and some water?" He nodded. "Off to bed with you, then. I'll bring them in to you." "My thanks," the patient replied and walked back down the hall. Miss Augustine watched him go, pondering what ailment he might have. She made a mental note to check his chart when she took him the Jell-o. Revolutions are akin to forest fires. They are brutal, deadly and highly destructive. They are also a necessity. The natural forest fire cleans away old growth, making way for a new generation. In a similar manner, a civil revolt wipes away old governments, tyranny and social injustices and replaces them with new, unstable and fresh ideals. Often times, the new governing body becomes overly powerful, overly controlling and overly rich, choking out opposition and new direction. The old must, eventually, burn, to make way for a diverse system. It was summer. The smell of wet, fresh-cut grass floated into the room of one John Doe. There, high above the lawn, the patient sat, listening to the mower. Before him sat a newspaper, opened to the Comics & Puzzles section. One of the doctors had suggested Mr. Doe try the crossword puzzle, hoping to discover clues about the mystery man by the trivia he knew. Whether Mr. J. Doe was a novice when it came to trivia or simply had no aptitude for word play was uncertain. What was becoming painfully apparent to both the patient and his nurse was he was completely hopeless at solving Tuesday's crossword. When Nurse Nancy poked her head into his room to check on J.D., she found him staring blankly at the page, the pencil limp in his hand. Chopsticks are associated, in the western world, with Asian culture and Asian foods. These wooden fingers grace many an oriental table. It may be interesting to note, however, the Koreans are alone in using metal chopsticks to manipulate their food. The inhabitants of that nervous, little peninsula click their teeth with tools resembling those found in a dentist's office while those in surrounding cultures use tree bits. The reason for this cultural difference is debatable. One might note, however, metal chopsticks are, generally, easier to clean than their wooden cousins, yet food slides from their surfaces with greater ease. Perhaps, one might guess, Koreans are likely to be cleaner and more thin than their neighbours. "Nothing. I've got nothing," Detective Roberts reported to Dr. Denman, "Nothing. He's not in our finger print database, no matching missing persons report and no scars or tattoos. I'd say he's a clean slate if it wasn't for the fact he talks like he's educated." "Asking him trivia questions didn't help, he doesn't seem to recognize anything. He even reads the comics like he's getting weather updates," Dr. D mused. "What now, then, doc?" "I'm going to suggest hypnoses." The detective snorted. "Have you got any better ideas?" "Gentlemen," Nurse Nancy interrupted. The two men turned their gazed on her. "He can probably hear you," she offered, quietly and nodded toward the patient's room. Their Mr. Doe might not remember anything from his past, but he appeared to soak up new information like a sponge. Detective Roberts sighed, "Wave a watch in front of him then. Let me know if you turn up anything useful." Sliced bread is often used as a benchmark for greatness. "The greatest thing since sliced bread" is a title given to the highest of the high, the most wonderful or amazing inventions of our time. The little miracle, the doughy wonder of the world, hit main stream in the late 1920's. Since then, many inventions have graced our lives; television, liquid paper, computers, compact discs, space shuttles and Post-it notes. So it is little wonder evenly sliced bread is still considered the act to beat. When John awoke he quickly became aware of a change in his room. Two changes, actually. The bed next to him was no longer empty. In it lay a large lad with bandages around his head, right shoulder and right foot. He appeared to be sleeping, unbothered by the machines which kept watch on his heart. The second change, also a young man, stood next to the window, in turn glancing at his larger, sleeping companion, and staring out at the clouds. "Hello," John said quietly. The thinner figured turned from the window pane, the tension on his face readily showing he was not often approached by friendly strangers. He visibly relaxed when his eyes took in Mr. Doe. "Hey," he replied. The right side of his face was criss-crossed with nasty, fresh scratches, "What up?" John glanced at the ceiling, "Nothing." "What'cha doing in here?" "I fell." "And?" "I don't remember." "Hmm." "Why are you here?" The skinny fellow stole a glance at the sleeping figure, "I'm just checkin' up on Slug here." "Slug?" "That's his name." "Why do you call him Slug?" The thin youth considered the question. "There are two reasons, 'pending on who you ask," he answered at last, "Some call him Slug 'cause he moves slow. Others say he was shot once by the police and didn' wanna go to the hospital, so the slug's still in 'im." John nodded. "What's your name?" "John. You?" "Roach." Roach didn't offer to shake hands and John decided not to question why the man called himself that. "What happened to Slug?" John asked instead. "We was driving up Robie street last night," Roach said, "couple of fools were drag racing. They ran right into us. Slug got the worst of it," Roach shook his head. "What happened to the racers?" John asked. "The ones in the car that hit us died. Went right through the windshield." "The other car?" "Got away clean." Christopher Columbus, an enterprising man, had the bright idea of finding the Far East by travelling West. His crazy-sounding plan might have worked, but for two things. One, the world is much larger than he had thought. Two, there was quite a bit of land in his way. The great western ocean did not stretch, empty, to the far side of globe. It may be because of Columbus' example, teachers now give grades based more upon effort than results. Dr. Brookfield: medical man. The good doctor had spent most of his career poking inside people's minds. Not physically, the good doctor was no champion of surgery, but mentally. Over the years Dr. Brookfield had developed a number of tools to aid in healing his patients' troubled minds. Hypnosis was one of those tools. Just what hypnosis is has been a debate for many years. A cheap parlour trick, a state of mind, a medical miracle, the path to enlightenment, an aid to quit smoking, a path to previous lives or simply a sleepy state in which people tend to accept suggestions have all been theories put forth. At this point few, if any, of those theories are doing better in the polls than any other. One thing most researches do agree on is that, when used properly, there are few to no negative side effects from being hypnotized. Dr. Brookfield, who was of the belief hypnosis is a state of mind similar to REM sleep, happily offered his services in the hospital's John Doe case. After introducing himself to the memory-less patient, he began the hypnosis procedure. Later, Brookfield would observe the patient was a textbook case during the induction. However, the doctor had some unusual results during his questioning period. "John, I'm going to ask you a few questions. Are you ready?" "I am." "What is your name?" "John Doe." "And how old are you, John?" "I do not know." "How long have you been in this hospital, John?" "Seven days." "We are now going to go back in time. Back to the night you were brought to the hospital. It is the evening of May 28th. Just before your fall. I want you to look around and tell me what you see." "I see a triangle." "A triangle?" "Yes, it's yellow, bright yellow. And it's floating." "Floating where?" "In front of me. It's turning a little. I can see through it." "What is behind the triangle?" "Nothing." "Let's go back a little further. We're going to go back in time to the day before your fall. It's noon, May 27th. Where are you?" "I am on a beach -- the edge of a beach -- overlooking the ocean. There are waves rolling down the beach. Waves of sand, rolling, falling and breaking against the water." "Waves? Of sand?" "Yes, I'm sitting on the grass, watching the sand churn, rolling and breaking against the water." "Is there a storm?" "... No, the water is calm." "Let's move on. What is your earliest memory?" "Nurse Nancy." "What was she doing?" "Looking at me. From the doorway." "Your doctor says you don't have a pulse. Is that true?" "Yes." "If you don't have a pulse, what does this mean?" "I must be dead." "You speak French and English. Do you speak any other languages?" "Yes." "What other language do you speak?" "Parlo italiano." "Italian?" "Yes." "Where did you learn to speak Italian?" "I do not know." "You don't have much of an accent. Are you from Halifax?" "All I remember is in Halifax." When the session was complete and John was brought out of his sleep-like state, he opened his eyes, blinked and looked up at Dr. Brookfield. "I am sorry about your wife," he said. The patient's final statement did not make it into Brookfield's report. People are fearful of things they do not understand. This was well demonstrated in the late 1970s and early 1980s, as personal computers first found their way into people's homes. The early personal computer, able to sit on a desk, run simple programs and print text gave birth to a range of movies about how the evil machines would eventually gain power. Perhaps enough power to over-throw the human race as masters of planet Earth. War Games, Short Circuit and Terminator being among the most popular; which preyed on the emotions of a culture visited by new technology. However, computers took over the world without firing a shot. It is nearly impossible to call a business without talking to a computerized voice. When calling a friend's phone, it's common to have a computer inform you they are not available to answer. Computers dominate our workplace, run our watches, control our war machines and edit our movies. Computers and their programs are used around the world for money transactions, creating maps and, commonly, for entertainment. What was once a laughable movie plot has become, to a degree, our reality. Nurse Nancy walked softly into John's room. Both the memory-challenged man and the one called Slug appeared to be sleeping. Nancy checked Slug's vitals; there was no need to check John's. How had he hit he ground so hard, she wondered, hard enough to erase his memory, yet there remained not a single scratch on him? Nancy had seen many an amazing event in her time at the hospital. She'd seen clinically dead people suddenly sit up and talk. She'd seen burned babies heal with hardly a scar. She'd seen doctors pull shot pellets out from around a man's heart, saving his life. Nancy had once witnessed a hopeless cancer patient beat the disease from her death bed. But for all of that, she'd never met someone like John. So calm and seemingly healthly, if one could ignore his complete lack of a heart beat. No active memory, yet he spoke at least three languages. She gazed down at her patient and wondered what sort of life he had lived before hitting the pavement in downtown Halifax. John opened his eyes, "Good day, Nurse," he greeted. Nancy gave him a smile, "Mr. Doe. How are you feeling?" "Well, thank you." "May I ask you something, John?" "Of course." "Do you dream?" To the best of her knowledge, no one had asked him this yet. He nodded. "What do you dream about?" John sat up in his bed and considered the question, "It's usually the same dream," he said. Nancy sat on the edge of his bed. "I'm standing in a tower, in a castle or fortress," he began, "it's raining. Down below, just outside the castle gate, there's a man on a horse. He's dressed in dark robes, I think; it's night time. I can't see his face from where I am." John paused, "Go on," Nancy resisted the urge to hold his hand. "The man, I think it's a man, on the horse reaches into his pocket and takes out an object and waves it at me. I'm not sure what it is, but it's small. It looks like a goblet. He shouts for me to come down to him. Then I wake up." "That's it?" "That's all." The prophecies of Fatima, three visions shown to three young sisters, had a great impact on the Catholic Church during the twentieth century. The shock waves which rippled through the Church at the revelations provided by the three Portuguese girls caused a great deal of paranoia among the faithful. Their tales were of Hell, looming war and ruin; fairly standard prophecy material. What makes them stand out, besides being modern and, it seems, partially accurate, is that this was a group experience. Prophecy is traditionally handed down from one seer, one man of God, one guru, to the masses. The sisters of Fatima claim to have seen their visions together. This, combined with the fact all the participants were women, make the Fatima prophecies a rather unique event in Church history. Nurse Augustine had a son in his early twenties, who happened to have about the same body build as John. She went through old boxes of clothes, which her son had left behind when he departed for college, and offered the bulk of them to John. Pleased with his new wardrobe, he began to wear the items on a daily basis. John was, physically at least, completely recovered from his fall. He took to wandering the halls, doing his own laundry and requested exercise books. It took the doctors a while to get used to seeing a man in civilian clothes doing push-ups in a sick room. Some, including Dr. Denman, began to question why they continued to keep him in the hospital. "He's just enjoying the free room," some declared. Nurse Nancy disagreed. His injuries when he was brought in were real. Mr. Doe's lack of pulse was real. "He needs care," she insisted, "if for no other reason, he'd be completely lost outside of these walls." Penguins are strange birds indeed. They are animals of opposites. A penguin is black and white in colour and can live near the south pole or at the equator. The penguin, a flightless bird (making it a potential fall victim) spends half of its time in water, the other half on land. The largest penguin is no bigger than a child, yet they rarely show fear of humans. Perhaps the penguin, unaccustomed to interaction with people, regard men and women as large penguins. Elegant, beautiful and awkward on land, the penguin brings both comedy and dignity to the world. Nurse Nancy was taking her break in John's room. He was seated next to the window, a yo-yo in his lap. She sat on the edge of his bed, sipping lemonade and eating a bagel. "Is it scary, John," she asked him, "not having any memories?" John had been practising with the yellow yo-yo and, upon hearing her question, sent it spinning toward the floor. When it came shooting back up its string, he caught the toy awkwardly. "No," he said, turning the yo-yo in his hand, "it's not scary. I mean, I get nervous when I think about out there," he gestured over his shoulder toward the window, "but my lack of memories don't bother me." Nancy offered John her glass and, when he refused, took a sip. "It doesn't bother you, not having a past. Not knowing who you are?" John shrugged, "I like to think I am more than the sum of my experiences," he answered. She nodded, "Oh, you are! I didn't mean that. But I think we need all the help we can get in finding our path." "Do our paths lie before us or behind?" "Ahead, but sometimes it helps to know where you're from." John smiled and sent the yo-yo falling to the floor again. "In some ways I'm happy not to remember," he said quietly. "Why, John?" "I've seen many people in the last week. Patients coming through the hospital. Some of them get lonely and they like to talk." He caught the round toy again in his hand, "They tell me terrible things about their lives." Nancy swallowed a bite of bagel and raised her eyebrows. She had been unaware John had been listening to patient's stories. "They tell me about abuse and suffering and death in their families. There are good things too, but so much sadness. Sometimes... Sometimes I wonder if I suffered the same injustices." The yo-yo fell again and was caught again. "There is a lot of joy in this world too, John," Nancy offered. He nodded. "While the bad stuff is part of our lives, it's important to focus on the good times." "I don't have either," John said softly. Nancy stood up and walked over to his window seat, "You're working on it," she said and put her arm around his shoulders. Jack the Ripper, one of history's most famous serial killers. While not the first, nor owning the highest body count, the Ripper has one thing going for him: No one knows who he was. It's been over a hundred years since the brutal murders shook England, the fresh corpses of the Ripper's victims mystifying and disturbing the police. Newspapers made the monster into a legend. So little is known about the Ripper case that there is considerable debate as to how many victims he claimed, what may have been a motive or even which confession letters -- sent to local papers at the time -- might be authentic. With all the puzzlement as to what is evidence, what is chance and what is connected, there are two things which are usually taken for granted. Two great assumptions which, perhaps, should not be assumed. The first is the Ripper worked alone. Many violent murders against women were committed during the reign of the Ripper. Assigning them all to one person may be in error. The second is the Ripper was a man; Jill the Ripper? "Where are you planning to take him?" Nancy asked. Detective Roberts paused at the door to Mr. Doe's room, "Back to where he fell," he answered simply. "Why?" "I'm hoping to get a reaction; a memory, a clue. We detectives do that, you know." Roberts pushed open the door. Inside, John was on his back, performing sit-ups. "Get your shoes on, old boy," Roberts declared, "We're going for a ride." John looked up at the detective. Mild surprise showed on his face, but he stood and walked to where his shoes were next to the bed. "Isn't this a little unusual?" Nancy asked from the doorway. "Everything about this case is unusual, ma'am," Roberts observed. "I'm going outside?" John asked. The detective nodded, "That's right. Ready?" "You don't have to go, John," Nancy told him. The detective whirled to face her. Glaring down at her he demanded, "What are you doing, lady, trying to stall my case? I'm trying to figure out who this guy is and what happened to him." Then, softer, "You don't think letting him stay here forever is going to help him, do you?" Nancy looked from the detective to her patient. John's face was neutral again. Her gaze returned to Roberts' face. "I'll go," John said quietly, "Lead on, Detective." Nurse Nancy watched as the two men walked down the hall to the elevator. She sighed and returned to the nurses' station. Some people, for whatever reason, make a large impact on our lives, she thought. Whether they be patient, doctor, chef or lover, some people have the ability to reach out and change our lives. Brand loyalty, the blind preference of one brand over another, can have a large impact on our lives too. Companies will go to great lengths to ingrain into their customers a bias toward their products, whether it be for cars, soft drinks, milk or, even, elevators. The desire for one brand of truck or soap or TV over another rarely has is roots in any major event or experience or quality. Rather, minor occurrences, perceived slights or family tradition tend to play a much larger role in the way we view companies and their products. It was a brief, though certainly significant event, which determined Mr. John Doe would never again use an Otis elevator. Soon after he and the detective boarded the hospital elevator, the cable suspending it in the air snapped. This time it was a fall Mr. Doe would would not survive. Author's note: When I started writing this story, I have to admit I thought it would go in a much difference direction than it did. I expected a pulse-less, memoryless fall victim to be a fallen angel or a demi-god. However, as I wrote, I discovered the nameless character was neither. What then, was the point of this story, I wondered. Why did it haunt me and pester me to write it? The story was nearly finished before I finally realized where it was taking me. The point, if this short piece can be said to have one, is that the Great Mystery is far from solved. With all of our science, technology and medical ability, the Great Mystery will not be solved. It refuses. Why do some people die while others live? Why do some people "just connect" while others rub us the wrong way? How are the things that happen possible when we can find no reasonable explanation? I think I had to write After The Fall to remind myself that I don't know. Who was Jesus? What motivated Jack the Ripper? Why do we find fishy smelling penguins so darn cute? Do (or can) dreams have a purpose? What inspired the pyramids? What it boils down to is I don't know and I like that. Long live the Great Mystery!